Why Are You Still Punishing Yourself?
AYYYEEEE!!! What up H3:33 FAM BAM!!! Here we are, the day before Thanksgiving. I’m feeling pretty great myself. How ya’ll feeling? I hope the vibes are the same out there. If not….ya’ll know I’m sending positive energy your way. 😁. ESPECIALLY because I hear that tonight is the biggest drinking night in America……Be safe and enjoy the time. However you decide to spend it.
Now….to what you came for…..Another NOTE from this journey of miinneeee. I originally was going to write this in correlation to a post I put up on all platforms yesterday but in today's meditation something else came to me and I decided to pivot.
A few months ago when I was visiting my family in Ohio, I stumbled upon a book that I had heard lots of things about but never read. My grandfather didn't even know it was in the house so he didn't care if I took it for my collection. Well this week, I started a new morning ritual which includes reading…..so I choose this book.
**Sidebar: After I test out these new morning routines, and see how they work for me. I plan to make them available for others to benefit from. 🙂**
I’m not very far in the book( The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz) but the following quote is what inspired this note:
“How many times do we pay for ONE mistake? The answer is thousands of times.”
WWHHOOOAAAA!!! Powerful right…..I almost provided more context from the book but I am sure ya’ll can see where this is going. When I read that line I chuckled to myself because …..BOY! Have I been stuck in a repeated loop of anger, guilt, shame, regret, or sadness from ONE event. Our mind is so extremely powerful and when allowed….it can…and WILL run wild. The quote above specifically mentions a “mistake” as in….something that we did that WE shouldn't have done. Unfortunately the way that RUMINATING is set up……this will happen with things that are done to you by others as well.
As I’m sitting here deciding upon which example I want to use to paint a picture of a time in which I was stuck paying for a mistake THOUSANDS of times…..I am reminded that I need to get my podcast going or finally truly start putting pen to pad on my book. Most examples require lots of detail so I will keep it simple with a high level overview.
There have been times….for {insert reason here} that have I gotten lost in rumination for HOURS at a time. Reliving the situation and what I wish I wouldve said or done….over….and over…and over again. Getting so {insert negative emotion here} that it feels the exact same way it did when the situation happened originally. Or what can even be worse….is when we let that SUPER powerful mind of ours truly run wild and create our own twisted beautiful dark fantasy (IYKYK) ….when NOTHING remotely close to that has ever happened and it is unlikely to ever do so……..
BREATHE!!!!
Why do we do this? Why do we allow ourselves to fall into quicksand of negativity? During these times of ruminating…..BREATHE….inhale….exhale….it is VITAL to remember that our mind is LIMITLESS…..and not to waste that power…..on something that places you into a box…
The mind will drag you back into suffering if you let it.
But discipline….the real inner discipline….is choosing not to punish yourself anymore.
You’re not the mistake.
You’re the EVOLUTION!
Healing builds strength. Rising builds legacy.
Check me out next week for another glimpse into the Journey! If this post sparked questions, comments, or reflections. Feel free to comment below, hit me up on YouTube, IG, or TikTok. I’m always down for a thought-provoking discussion or feedback for growth.
Holla at MMmeeeeeee
Hiram
H3:33